To Be continued

So this is my first post....and I am not entirely sure I will share this with anyone, but I feel I need a form of catharsis for all the shit that I have been going through. Lets list the obvious things right now, I'm 26 yrs old, 27 in December, currently I am completing my masters in tourism with project management. I'm gay, HIV +, and what I have finally accepted....fat. The funny thing about my particular weight conundrum is that I wasn't always fat. I was a skinny thing, and i never paid any attention to when people would say I would gain weight. I mean I was always thin, and my sister was always overweight. I know that is a mean thing to say but it is just a fact, I never pitied her, or forced anything on her, I just embraced her. About 5 years ago I started to gain weight and over a 3 yr period i went from 150lbs to 215 lbs. Currently I am at 201-205lbs, depending on my diet. Now the thing is I know that I have always had self esteem issue, even when I was younger and slimmer. So I guess this blog is about trying to reassert my own positivity during my battle for the bulge. The aim of this blog is to no longer be "the fat on" amongst my friends. I'm tired of it, this isn't who I am, but it will serve as the journey for who I am meant to be. My life isn't just starting and neither are these thoughts that is why this title is to be continued. Cause my story is not over yet. Till Next Time.